I still think about you every single day. Just because I don’t write about you doesn’t mean you aren’t still in my mind and my heart. A lot has gone on lately, little darling. You know. Your daddy is gone from my life. He may not have known how to show you he loved you, but please princess, watch over him. You are a part of him.
I know you watch over me and I know you still hear me when I talk to you. I know you wipe my tears when I think of you. I know you’re wiping my tears right now. Sometimes I feel you whispering in my ear. Who needs intuition when you have a tiny little angel? I hope I am making you proud. I hope that with every thing I do, your heart lights up the heavens with joy. I hope I can do your little life justice by doing well in mine. If I couldn’t bring life to you, I can at least bring more life to me and I’m focused on doing just that, baby girl, I really am.
I’m dating again, darling. And having new men in my life has made me think about you often. I have to pinch myself sometimes… really, really pinch myself. I finally know what it feels like to be treated with kindness and respect. My promise to you is that I will never give my heart to a man who doesn’t love you and understand that you will always be a big part of my life. You taught me so much that I can never go back on and for that, any man who loves me should also love you. I promise to never give my heart to a man who doesn’t adore me and give me everything I would give him. I promise your little life will not be in vain, I will take everything you ever taught me and I will run with it.
Baby, I am the happiest I have ever been. The only void in my life is you and I am filling it with laughter, joy, friends, love and some tears when I need a good cry. I will always have a Paizley-shaped hole in my heart, but because of your sacrifice, I was able to move on and find real happiness. Things do happen for a reason, I know.
